I'm taking a break from this blog for exams. I will be back in June.
Today is the four-year anniversary of this blog! Well done to me for never clicking the "delete" button despite the excruciating embarrassment I feel whenever I scroll through the posts I wrote when I was 13. This will be my last post before exams but I will still be persistently procrastinating on instagram and tumblr. I wrote a short story about magic/witchcraft and teenage friendship for Plasma Dolphin, and that issue will be published on Monday. I couldn't think of anything special to include in this anniversary post so I'm just going to quote Anna Wintour in The September Issue and say this:
"Fashion is not about looking back. It's always about looking forward."
Looking forward is something I have been doing a lot lately as I've been thinking about what university I will go to later on this year. I went to Sheffield earlier this week and I did not take nearly enough photos, but it is a beautiful city with cool vintage shops and cute cafes.
Here is an outfit I wore a couple of weeks ago. The top is from eBay, the jacket is from New Look, the jeans are from Topshop, the shoes are Rocketdog and the jewellery is a culmination of homemade and Claire's pieces I've collected over the years.
From 13-17, I've literally had this blog throughout my teen years. This has a much more weighted significance to me than it would have done 4 years ago. Now that I'm at the tail end of adolescence I'm obsessed with teen culture. However, I still think I'll be happy to personally leave that awkward, weird time of my life behind. And if I ever miss it I have all the evidence here. Who wouldn't want to leave a permanent mark on the internet of their teenage strangeness?!?
I know I said I wouldn't reflect too much in this post, but I would like to thank everyone who reads this blog. Your comments mean so much to me (that sounds trite as hell but hear me out) and have given me much more confidence in my writing and in my outfit choices. If it hadn't been for the response I got to this post about Victoria's Secret I never would have thought to send it to The Daily Mail and then I wouldn't have got published back in December. Since I won't be posting again between now and June I'm going to try and engage in the blogging community a lot more with regards to commenting and ~networking~/friend making.
I haven't actually changed that much since I started blogging. I sorted out my bedroom the other day and found a bunch of old journals. Reading them made me realise that my life has been pretty linear. My interests have expanded, as has my personality but nothing's really changed, I'm just a little older (I've had that song in my head all day I had to fit it in somewhere.) I think that's kind of strange and I can't decide whether it makes me dull or endearing. I don't really know anyone else who has stayed the same as much as I have. I always want to follow things through and go all the way with what I think matters which can sometimes be unhealthy. Sometimes I feel trapped by the identity I've created for myself. I wonder who I would be if I had never been interested in fashion or reading or writing; whether I'd feel happier and more fulfilled or generally more weary with life. One day I want to spend a few months in a small village in the south of France and try to shed away the unnecessary layers and just be.
As well as being on tumblr and instagram for the next few months, I will also be writing for Cherry, Plasma Dolphin and Dynamic.
My favourite collections from Paris Fashion Week so far are Yohji Yamamoto, Maison Margiela, Issey Miyake and Rick Owens
I hope you all have a great few months and I'll be back in June xoxo